When anxiety rears its head

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I have pretty severe anxiety. Most days I have it under some sort of control, but only because I plan so far ahead that it is stupid to plan as far ahead as I do.

For instance, I had 21 books before I started releasing novels in earnest.

21 books is too many books. Except that for some reason, having that many made me feel less anxious.

I had over 300 blog posts saved up before I started my daily blog. I don't even know how long this post was waiting in queue before you read it, but likely, it was waiting for months before I released it. 

I know 300 was too many to wait, but for some reason, having that many in store before I started made me less anxious.

The reason I finished every book before I launched a Kickstarter was because I physically could not deal with the anxiety of having that kind of money looming over my head.

Sometimes though, life gets in the way, and you just can plan for every contingency. When that contingency comes up, it's literally all …